I'm Thomas, not Randy or Sean. I'd change my username if I could. I get sad easily and I like to be the bad guy at times. Yes, I'm a virgin. I'm tired in ways I can't even begin to describe. I use to really enjoy photography until I realized thats all people saw when the looked at me; either that or they would call me paparazi or other not flattering names. Not really sure where my life is going and I dont really think I like it anyways. Even though I'm a virgin, I'm beginning to think sex is overrated and have seriously considered what it would be like if I didn't have testicles. If it is remotely possible that you're old enough to be my dad, don't friend request me and definitely don't unlock your nasty pictues for me. I want someone to hug just because I want to hug them. I've made myself physically ill from stress before, quite frequently actually. I'm unable to envision myself living to an old age. I'm a technophile. I go nuts if I don't know what time it is. I'm dependent on google calendar to keep my life on track. I lie therefor I am. My shoulders and back have knots. I'm tired of being alone. I rarely remember my dreams. I'm partly color blind to some shades of colors. I laugh at some horror movies- especially Saw. I'm not 'normal'. I'm not okay. I don't have many friends. I feel olde. I like cheese. I always have some piece of technology on me. No one really like me unless I can do something for them. I have to initiate conversations if I want to talk to someone; they only initiate if they want something from me. I'm tired of boys. I'm a caffeine addict. I have a horrible sleep schedule. 90% of the time that I'm listening to my iPod, I'm actually listening to an audiobook. I miss having time to curl up with a good book. I took the boyscout motto to the extreme and now I'm a pack rat because I always want to be prepared. why are you still reading this. I've taken well over 50Gb of pictures in my life. I play tennis for fun. I don't have fun so I don't play tennis often. I count the last time I had fun not in hours or days but in weeks. I'm tired. I'm overly rational. I can't have typical college fun because I'm always measuring the consequences. I like being alone but I want to be with others. I have a very strong sense of right and wrong even if it is by my own compass. I greatly believe in debts- if you owe someone, pay them back and if they owe you, they should pay you back-it should all balance. Suicide is wrong. I'm very paranoid by nature but I'm trying to tone it down. I'm not a perfectionist buy I am a completionist-incomplete projects or assignments nag at me, even years later. I'd like my life to mean something and be important but I've accepted it will probably be only average. I despise average. I dislike being touched by strangers. I contemplate oblivion and how peaceful it must be. I really don't know where time goes. I snore, tough deal with it. I believe in having a backup plan if not a backup backup plan. I'd like to be able to just close my eyes and stop worrying about it all.
Insights into My Life aka Thomas' Words of Wisdom
-When you have so few of something so valuable and precious, You hold onto them all the tighter.
-You can pick your friends but you cant pick your family... but by choosing your friends you let them in to where they can do the most harm.
-You cant pick your family but you can pick the friends who can become your family
-Spoken language is so incompatible for expressing oneself sometimes.
-To feel always cold and empty, now that is sad and desolate, that is my life.
-If I believed in past lives, I would be an Olde Soul.
-Maybe the Native Americans didn't have it so wrong about having your picture taken stealing your soul, For what is a picture but a piece of your life forever captured RAW. (photographer humor)
-Both a Wall & My Passion: My Camera
-You cannot live a true life if you have not found the bonds or anchors that keep you rooted to this world.
-A true love is trusted Mind, Body, and Soul. Anything less is a lie and therefore fake.
-Something broken can never be made whole again for there will always be those small fragments forever lost.
-It should be impossible to be alone in a crowd of people but it is very doable.
-Words are Fake.
-Yesterday can never be the same as Today and is most suredly not like Tomorrow.
-Ignore the words, Trust the Actions and the Feelings.
-Self-doubt leads to the Devil.
-The Devil's favorite game is "What If...".
-Life like TV has commercials, but unlike TV there is no TiVo and no Fast-forwarding or Rewinding though sometimes we can expierence Pause but beware of Stop.
-A majority of good thoughts and ideas are never spoken aloud.
-Remember the Tortoise and the Hare: the Hare enjoyed the brief moments of glory along the way but the Tortoise won the race. Funny how no one asks what happened after?
-A life wasted is a wasted life.
-Bah I say to Carpe Diem, don't stop at the day.
-Follow the Rules (Exploit the Loopholes)
-Be Ware of Candy People (private joke)
-Respect People's Wishes (or just don't let them find out)
-Be Glad Telepaths aren't real
-Smile even if you're not happy, it releases endorphins and is good exercise for the face.
-Never doubt the power a good friend holds.
-No that this is never the end, just a new kind of beginning.
-Oddly enough, things do have a way of working out.
-Being blunt is best, you may step on some toes but it is better than leaving them doubting.
-Always have at least one person in your life that knows all your secrets because like the song goes, "We all need somebody to lean on..."
-Truth is relative, Honestly is better.
-A relationship is much like a friendship, but more meaningful and fulfilling, hopefully. You don't take advantage of the others, you don't try to out-do them. You try to help them in everything, keep them safe, love them, protect them, try to keep everything in balance and you never want to consider anyone else as more important. Just as important, perhaps, but you shouldn't want to spend more time with a friend than your partner. (not my own words but still very true)
-The Soul is powered by emotions. Hope, joy, happiness let it burn bright. Sorrow, anger, hate cast naught but darkness.
-Of the five senses, touch is the least appreciated. People can survive without sight or sound or taste or smell but they're go mad without touch.
-A hug from a friend or loved one is without equal.
