What do I want? Well that’s a hard thing to put into just a few paragraphs. I would rather have someone to sit and to hold and just BE with.

I want someone who won’t be afraid to hold my hand in public. I want someone that isn’t going to be embarrassed to be seen with just me at the theatre or in a restaurant. I want someone who won’t care what the world thinks, only that I know how they feel about me. I want someone who will sneak up behind me with a kiss, or place their hands on my waist or tell me they loves me when I least expect it. I want someone who won’t just sit on the couch with me and watch a movie, but instead someone who will snuggle up to me, lay their head in my lap, and fall asleep there next to me, completely forgetting there is even a movie playing. I want someone who will let me hold them, and not just let me, but actually hold me back, I want to feel when they hold me, the feelings they have for me. I want to be able to know exactly how they care for me just by the embrace, just by being held close to their heart, exactly where I want to be. I want someone who will call me every night to talk to me and if I don’t answer they leave a voicemail saying what they wanted to say and ending with how much I mean to them. I want someone who will text me all day long no matter how busy they are. Someone who will tell me how they feel about me. I want somebody who says “I love you” more than I do. Someone who will say it FIRST and not just say it BACK. 

I would do anything for them. I would treat them like they deserve and different from how they have ever been treated before. I would pour my heart out with every single thing that I did. I would make breakfast in bed with all of their favorite foods, just the way they like it. I would go out and buy flowers or a card or a gift, not because it was a holiday or because of a special occasion, but simply because it was a Monday, simply because I thought they would need it, simply to show what they mean to me. I would always have my arm round them wherever I went. I would never sit by them without some part of us being together whether it was just a simple holding hands or whether we were deeply wrapped, snuggling on the couch. 

I could love this person, love them with all my heart, and never ever have sex once. As long as I knew they loved me just the way I loved them, as long as we both cared for each other more than anything in the world, than that would be all I needed. No amount of sexual intimacy can take the place of the feeling of love, security, and being at home, that one can give to you. My love affirmation is physical touch. Not sexual touch, just physical. You can tell me all day long what I mean to you and how much you love me, but if you don’t hold me close, or make me FEEL it, rather than just HEAR it, it won’t be the same for me at all. I need that touch. I need that long slow embrace from someone that you have given your heart to. Being held by someone you love? Your face in their chest, eyes closed, just breathing and taking them in…. everything else in the world just melts away. Nothing else matters for that one instant. Nothing matters as long as they don’t let go. Overwhelming peace consumes every part of you as warmth spreads through your body knowing that the person you are holding is holding you back not to be polite, but because they truly don’t want to let go either. 

Find me someone like this?..... Someone willing to be the romantic, willing to pour out their heart and hold nothing back, someone that will make every effort they can to let me know they love me? Find someone like this?... And I will be happy. Find me someone that will hold me, before I ever get a chance to reach for them first.